“My Grace is sufficient for you, for MY power is made perfect in weakness” 2 Cor 12:9
I delivered a personal record number of babies in 2012. I made the stork look lazy.
My year contained many beautiful moments and sleepless nights. Placing a slippery, pink bundle of joy in her mother’s arms for the first time is the highlight of my job. I was privileged to be a part of two extra special deliveries this year as I watched two of my friends become mothers for the first time. These women both had journeys to motherhood that were composed of more detours than either of us would have imagined. Watching them embrace the joys of motherhood has truly been a unique blessing. The only down side in this story is that the two friends also happen to be fellow doctors in my group. So while I am overjoyed for them in their new motherhood state, I ended 2012 exhausted from being short staffed for half the year.
The year also included contributing to 2 books, weekly blog posts, 6 road trips and several other commitments. And, let me not forget, the kids, house and hubby.
I struggled with writing this post. What does grace look like for me in the coming year? Hard to think about 2013 as the chaos from the previous year is still lingering in my bones. As I searched for the words to write; all I could think of were my list of failures from last year:
- Driving by my hospital one day, my 3 year old points to it and says, “Look, it’s mommy’s house.”
- A patient compliant to my staff about how I was too rushed with her to answer all her questions that day (it was true).
- The days that I was too busy to go the extra mile to help a friend or neighbor in need.
- How my posts aren’t as eloquent or ‘spiritual’ as most of the other talented ladies who write for this site.
However, I realized by writing this post, that 2012 was a year saturated with Grace. While I failed often, each time I asked for forgiveness and for the strength and wisdom to make the next day better. I had more on my plate in 2012 then I had ever had before. And I never dropped that plate. Not once. I never missed a deadline or a day at the office. My patients and kids were always cared for. Sometimes I carried that plate with a little murmuring and complaining, but He was always there to support my arms. His grace was sufficient each and every day. The schedule was crazy for a season, but it needed to be.
I pray that 2013 is a year of “LESS” for me. I pray to have less on my plate. I hope that I can take the time each day to relish each element on my plate. I pray that I can linger at His table, linger with my patients and linger with my family, a few extra moments every day. However, if that is not His plan, then that is OK too. Because He has proven that He is faithful to give me the strength for what He has called me to do.
Where do you hope to see more grace in your life in 2013?